When I watch you

When I watch you
I see
every breath
you take
in
and
out

When I watch you
I see a lifetime
of memories
love
struggles
challenges
healing
and rising from  
what felt like
our lowest
moments

When I watch you
my body feels
warm
loved
held
seen
and understood
in a way
that no one
has ever
understood me

When I watch you
I see our children
building their lives
out of strength
courage
love
and there you are
watching
because
you see it
too

When I watch you
I feel like
we’ve lived
a million lives together
each one
having an impact
on this one
teaching us
what
and who
to
value

When I watch you
I see
my heart
my soul
the most beautiful pain
the most joyous strength
the most gracious love
in the kindest person
the world
will ever know

When I watch you
I remember
that you have
held me
and loved me
through the screams
the tears
and the agony
of trying to accept
myself
and when
I crumbled
You picked up the pieces
of a broken little girl

When I watch you
my heart sings
because I get to live
this life
with you

I want to pick you up
put you in my pocket
and never
let anything
happen to you

I want to protect you
from your first breath
to your last
and make
everything better
but sometimes
I can’t

My love
I will always be
right here
next to you
holding your hand
waiting
until
you need me

I will always be
here
watching
over you

@Amberley Charlotte 11.23.22
Photo Cred: Candiix Pixabay

My Heart

I can’t leave you

My heart
My soul
My world

You hurt
I hurt

My chest
burns
My heart
skips

Holding my breath
waiting
for the other shoe
to fall

I have no answers
as to why

I feel helpless
watching you
suffer

At any
moment
life could
change

I can’t stop it
I can’t control it
I can’t fix it

My heart
My soul

Every piece of me
hurts
for every piece of you
that’s hurting

My world
My great love
My heart

©Amberley Charlotte 11.23.22
Photo Cred: Ashley Levinson