She is Woman!

Spellbinding
Commanding

Constant movement
Blurred lies

Rolling thunder
Threatening storm
A tornado touches down

Although defiant
corruption won’t win
darkness won’t last

The ocean cries
A call to action
The courage to soar

She rages
She roars

With the strength of 1000 angels
Lightning strikes
The waves rise up
The universe wails

It’s time
to protect
the children!

She is resilient
She is powerful
She is brave

Out of the darkness
a rainbow will come

She is
the warrior in the battle

She is
the calm in the storm

She is Woman!


Amberley Charlotte ©2022
Painting by Lisa Adams: https://synesthesiaartist.com/

Social Media Exhausts Me

I need to be real here.
I love posting poems and stories here, but social media exhausts me!

Maybe I’m too old for this?
I know we must change with the times, and I love meeting people from all over the world, but it’s so loud that I can hear banging sounds.

I am an introvert with PTSD, synesthesia, and sensory overload.

Gone are the days when a writer could hide in a little dark room with a pen, paper, computer, chocolate, and wine and pop out masterpieces.

Now everyone wants to be seen, the number of followers matters, and how popular you are on social media comes with perks of being published, etc.

I got on TikTok today. I lasted maybe 10 minutes, and most of that time was trying to figure out how to delete my account!

It’s exhausting!

I don’t want to be seen. I came here to tell stories, inspire people, and help them feel a little less alone.

I process things slower than some. I live life on high alert with PTSD. One minute I’m bold, the tough girl no one can mess with, and the next, I’m filled with anxiety, worried about everyone, and wishing I could save the world of all the pain and hurt.

As an empath with synesthesia, all my senses are on 24/7, and I never rest. I’m constantly feeling the pain of the world or seeing, feeling, and experiencing so much energy at once.

When I’m writing, my head quiets down, and for a moment, I’m right where I need to be.

I want to share my stories with the world. I want to publish my poems. I want to be seen in that way. I just wish I could do it without the banging sounds of social media.

Oh, to be one of those prolific writers who hides in a corner office, popping out inspiring prose that changes lives while being invisible and safe in my world of solitude, exploration, and fantasy.

Or maybe thats just a fantasy.
There has got to be a way to have both.



Amberley Charlotte ©2022
Photo Cred: https://unsplash.com/@crisaur

Chocolate Heart Story: Kaleidoscope

I didn’t plan on writing this today. I’ve been studying so hard for my chocolate tasting exam and that requires me to be analytical and focused.

I like to live like someone left the gate open. I like to put pen to paper and scribble words to see what comes up. I like to finger paint with honey, jam, and peanut butter, all over the kitchen table.

I believe when we allow ourselves freedom we find magic in our minds. I find colors and shapes and stories. I believe when we give ourselves permission we can heal from the baggage, the pain, and whatever holds us back. I believe that self-care and play therapy is extremely important and sometimes even more important than taking tests and being a grown-up.

Without balance we have stress, inflammation, agitation, and there is no peace, no rest, and no joy.

I haven’t given myself a lot of time to write lately because the certification is so important to me and honestly I really want to pass this test.

But I am an artist first and when I put myself on time out, or I build a box around my heart, I force myself to live within certain parameters, and that suffocates me.

I had zero intentions of starting the chocolate heart story series. It was never part of my thought process for this blog. But I also wasn’t prepared to share about Synesthesia. I kept it hidden. I was ashamed and from experiences in life it was appropriate to keep it hidden and not share my beautiful wildly vivid visions with the world.

But no more hiding. We cannot be authentic and have authentic relationships when we are hiding. If we are not truthful with ourselves we struggle to be honest with others.

Through this Chocolate journey I have embraced my quirky. I have learned to love every bit of crazy that I bring to the world. I have learned to explore more of who I am instead of trying to be somebody I am not.

So if you’re still reading and I haven’t lost you yet, I will tell you I have no idea what comes next. Bloggers are supposed to have a plan and a format, I have none.

But I know this, I am on a journey of self exploration and self acceptance. I am a little bit crazy, a whole lot of quirky, a freaking basket of compassion, love, and empathy, with a splash of rebellion.

I want to help people heal. I want to help them find joy. I want them to release the chains and live life fully not fearfully, and I believe that Chocolate can be the leader on this journey of self discovery. Maybe we can do this together.

Please enjoy the poem below. This poem came out of tasting beautiful chocolate made by MillCreek Cacao Roasters This BlackBerry 70% dark chocolate bar is made with 3 simple, ingredients: Certified Heirloom cacao, pure cane sugar, and cocoa butter.

The blackberry, caramel and dark sugar notes are amazing! This Chocolate will bring a cool smooth sensation to your mouth. If you close your eyes and let the chocolate talk to you, you just might be surprised what it will say.

To be transparent, I never called myself an artist before. I guess I didn’t realize I had that gift until it became clear to me in the poem you’re about to read. All of it inspired by tasting this bar. This is what happens to me when I smell and taste chocolate.

I know, life is rough right?
I am acutely aware of how blessed I am.

Thank you for hanging out with me today, enjoy the poem.

Kaleidoscope

Our Lives
A kaleidoscope of missed opportunities
Chances we’ve been given
Doors we’ve closed

Longing to be loved, seen, and understood for who we are, not what the world requires us to be

No more masks
No hiding
No limitations
The chains are broken
There’s no room for self-doubt

The winding road welcomes us
The sweet smell of blackberry reminds us to breathe

We are artists
Passionate, eccentric, driven
We need to create
We need to inspire

When we’re lost
The world feels unsafe

Then inspiration draws us in
Creativity soothes us
Passion drives us
And when our hearts are full
We find our way home


Blessings,

AmberleyCharlotte ©2022
Inspired by Millcreek Cacao Roasters: Farm to bar
Certified Heirloom Cacao: Blackberry 70% Dark Chocolate
Arriba Nacional Hacienda Limon Farm: Ecuador